i want to stop crying over this, but it's hard.
i'm tired of always thinking it's over for good.
i'm slowly loosing hope in everything.
you'd say it's not the end of the world, but you don't understand how i feel.
no matter what anyone else says, no one understands this feeling.
everyone's different, and no matter how similar the situation may seem, the people are different.
i'm different.

today i felt like everything was crashing down,
after that nightmare, i felt like today was my end.
i feel like i've lost everything that matters the most to me.
one right after the other...
they're fading, next thing you know,
there'll be nothing left.

i know i have my whole future ahead of me,
but it's hard when even that includes you..
i want a brain scan, maybe they can tell me what the fck is going on inside my own mind,
'cause i have no clue whatsoever.

breakdowns here and there,
at the worst possible times,
in the worst possible places...

one by one they're disappearing,
and i'm just letting them...
why? 'cause i'm in too deep,
i'm too hurt to do anything.

i'd really just rather fade away myself,
it's not just him anymore,
it's everything that matters to me.
i'm loosing everything...