back again. i suppsoe i lost connection when the end of the year came; with finals and graduation and everything. i think it's about time i blabbed to you again.

hung's on vacation now. i know he'll only be gone for a while, but it hurts. i guess i've fallen just hard enough to be sad about every little thing involving him. oh wells, stay safe dweetie, i love you <3

how's your summer? mines?
i don't quite know how to explain it. it was exciting in the beginning. supposed wisdom tooth extraction was scheduled sometime after school ended, and braces the month after. well june's almost over & my wisdom tooth are still pretty much inside my jaws. oh wells. i suppose it was too good to be true that i'd finally be getting braces. it's alrights, money's tight right now & i suppose i can get it done sometime else in the future.

gym with my dad? in progress, so i think. he keeps telling me soon, we'll go, soon. like i said, june's almost over & still nothing. so instead i've been biking around the neighborhood with my brother arounf 6-7ish in the afternoon. jogging in the morning if i wake up & trying to eat healthier. let's hope that good enough. i had a feeling i should've signed up for summer PE again, as a TA. dang & tri are doing it. somewhere in my mind i knew i should've. oh wells.

community service. my mom signed the papers. it said application takes three weeks to process. i can't seem to remember when i sent the letter. i was a monday. i think it was last monday. hmm, i'm pretty sure it's last monday now. i knew i should've sent it off a long time ago. sighh, remind me to call them up and ask.
side topic [baby sis just caught a star for me, she said one for me and one for hung. baby, she's thinking of you.]

i'm stuck at home, playing gaia and hanging around in my moms room for most of the day. i sure have no life. only time i get out is when my bro and i go biking. what happened to the movie day with my two bros? jared and dj? idk, let's call them up soon and ask. dj needs a life & jared needs a break. me? i just wanna watch pinoy movies and pig out.

i feel blehh again. why? maybe 'cause i know hung's not in his bed right now & i miss him & i'm worried. i hope he's alrights and he has fun. i promised him i'd go to bed with a smile, idk if i can fully give him that. he pulled something inside of me that makes me so clingy and tear at nearly every thought of him going somewhere. stupid? nah, i think it's love.

friends? i have them? joke. sure would like to see them. if i never get to hang around, i hope the understand. i can't just always go out even though it's summer. my baby sis is going to school in the fall & she needs training. my grams getting tired of doing so much work around the house & been bitching at everyone lately, mostly me. mother's leg is acting up again. really wish i can drive now so i can do some of it and relieve her of her ouchies. really hate seeing her in pain. i try to help but i just walk away asap. makes me tear seeing her like that. dad's the same placing bets and loosing then taking out anger on whoever he sees. i try to avoid his path. sister's still a witch. nothings change, she recently almost gave everyone heart attacks just leaving witot telling anyone. complains she's bored and has nothing to do. she was offered to take summer school, she said no. not my fault.

me, i'm doing fine. same as always. everytime i think FML, i think about the other millions of people who have it a lot worse than i do. i hope your life gets easier and you'd be happy. if only wishes came true right? oh wells. i look forward to catching up with old friends and just hanging out. i dont look forward to school but i look forward to new things ahead, hopefully for the better. i look forward to hung coming back, to him listening to me rant on and bawl about pety things and not judge. don't you just wish for someone to listen to you cry and not judge you that you'r crying over something so stupid like a lost sock or something? that'd be nice. i miss you hung<3 have fun on your vacation.

goodnights

XO, Dweetiex3